I went to our ward's Christmas program tonight. It was nice. Of course, they had the narrator behind the curtain so I couldn't lipread but hey... I do believe I was able to get the gist of what the program was about. Hello, CHRISTMAS? ha. Anyway. There was a casual friend who came up to me and said she had missed me in church. I smiled and said thank you. She asked if I had just been sick and I just shook my head. Has the baby been sick? Shook my head again and feeling incredibly awkward. She looked at me a little more intently and said, "Was it 'I just need to be left alone?'" I finally opened my mouth and said, "Yes." She then just nodded her head and wisely started making small talk about my baby.

What does one say? Does anybody who has struggled with depression, loneliness, fear have a reasonable answer? A socially acceptable answer at that? How could I say, "I haven't been to church for months because I struggle with depression, and when it's bad - I feel sorry for myself and it's a huge struggle to even get out the door, let alone go to church."

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Random stuff:
When we were getting in the van to go home from the program, Hero apparently burped and tried to pass it off as Boo having done it. Boo just shook her head and told me, "He's a gentleman around you but not me."

Little Man is recovering slowly from his adenoidectomy (?) and tonsillectomy earlier this week. He has become mute. He'll pat my arm and point or make gestures as to what he needs. I hate that he feels crummy. But am happy that he's now asking for "real food." His words, not mine. He's so skinny from having a diet of popsicles all week. :( Around 2am this morning, he came in to our bedroom and asked his dad for a popsicle. Hero had only been asleep for 2 hours so he was having difficulty waking up and being able to think coherently. Little Man walks back into his room and gets in bed. Hero follows him and asks him about the popsicle. If he wanted one - yes - . Then let's go get one - no - . Thought he wanted a popsicle - yes, in the morning - . Hero came back to bed and stayed confused all night.

Our place is decked out for Christmas and it makes me happy every time I walk in the front door. It's crazy though to see FIVE stockings hung up! I know it's not a huge jump from 4 to 5 but it IS to me!!!

Our ADVENT activities are going well. So far we've had:
*Put up lights in kids' room and downstairs.
*Buy the world's perfect Christmas tree.
*Decorate the world's perfect Christmas tree.
*Attend the Ward's Christmas program

I know it's not wowsa stuff but it works for our family. We've got some more interesting & "funner" things coming up.

Ta for now. My baby has decided his bedtime is midnight. Oy.