Ick.

Things are a little shaky now that I'm no longer on my happy pills...

But I'm determined to pull through it.

Through running.

It's interesting to see that when I don't run, I think about it a LOT.

Don't get me wrong - I still have the "I don't feel like going, I'm too cold/tired, I just wanna stay home, wah-wah-wah" battle EVERY time I'm scheduled to go running with my friend.

But once I get going - I'm finding that I'm liking it.

The feeling of my lungs opening up and taking in all that fresh air.

The feeling of my heart working and getting stronger.

The sense of accomplishment each time I can go for longer stretches.

The feeling of finding balance... in my thoughts and emotions.

I really am hoping and praying that through this, I won't have a need to go back on those happy little things.

I'm hoping that I won't be stupid in not recognizing if I need that extra help again and getting it.

Btw - I do have an excellent support system in the form of Hero who is helping me recognize when things are sliding and when things are going well.

I love him.

Now, if somebody could just talk to Mother Nature about cranking up the heat a little bit? That would help a great deal too!

Arizona is looking mighty fine.... ;)